Recent conversations about marriage

Well, here I go about to stick my neck out there once more. The question of when will I get married always seems to come in the fall. I think about it more in the summer, but ALWAYS get asked the question in the fall.

Here is my take:

In my 20's, I was looking for miss right who would stay with me forever in Searcy, Arkansas.
In my early 30's, I was looking for someone who was a lot more mature and had a faith in God bigger than mine.
Right now, God has a lot more work to do on me. I know, I am not the perfect person I thought I was when I was in my 20's. I have always known but I will admit more today, that I have a very messed up family that I will asked some lady one day to join. Don't get me wrong, my family is my family. This last one, is probably my biggest stumbling block. I am secure in myself, I believe this last point is another hurdle I believe I have conquered.

I am not ashamed of my upbringing, I have to live in the real. I wanted so much to have the perfect life/family to present to my wife. Well, that wont be happening anytime soon. My nephew recent saying "It is what it is!" I hope she will see she is marrying a Christian young man who is a sinner and is looking forward to being in heaven.

So the question of when I will get married. God only knows....

I want to do nothing!

Well, it is the weekend and I'm about to do nothing. I am going to enjoy doing nothing. I might read a book, or do nothing. I want to do nothing, but I might have to go do something. Well, if I do something, I will let you know. I want to do nothing. So, there you have it. What do I do? HA!

Praying

Right now I am praying about many things: New students and their families, Sinners all over the world, East Cobb church, GAC, Creekside Church in Texas, and much more. I pray for our country as I have for many years. I pray that those not liking this President will keep things civil. I hate what I see and what I hear. Adults needs to understand the next generation is watching us on how we deal with things we don't like. Can I say Kanye West? Some Adults should be ashamed of themselves. I am praying for adults everywhere to grow up if they have not yet.

I'm praying for my future. I will be 40 before you know it. I am doing as I always do some introspection, and making sure this is what I should and want to do. I don't know why I look at 40 as the half way point, but the closer I get the more I feel like it is.

Lastly, I am praying for you for coming my way via the blog.

Found a Car!

Well, I found a car. It is a 2000 Chevy Metro. It was the right price. I have done all the necessary things today to make it legally mine. My sister actually drove it more than me today. I am now getting ready for Chicago. I have told myself to take some time to visit friends and have a little more fun away from my fun work. I really enjoy what i do. I just need a little balance. Truth be told I have never been balanced. I will be staying with my good friends from college Rich and Heather Little. It should be a great weekend. I hope yours is as well. Talk to Monday, hopefully sharing all the good that happened this weekend.

Good day in Atlanta!

Well, today was a pretty good day. I have not found a car yet. I am wanting cheap so I can buy new all cash in 2012. The right one will come along. Tonight, I got a free dinner at our magazine sale kick off. This saved me money today. I did not spend a dime except the gas already in my tank. God is still good!

I have had several people to lose a family member here lately. I will continue to preach to my students and everyone else to spend the quality time you can with those you love. I am also encouraging people to be there for those you love. This is difficult for me at times because many of all the "can I borrow" offers. I want to be their emotionally not financially. It is hard, but must be done.

Going to Chicago at the end of the week to be with good friends of mine Rich and Heather Little. I will enjoy this weekend with them. I will lead worship on Sunday, but I always look forward to that every time I can. I even got an email today from another person from my college days just wanting to have that college worship experience at their church today. She said she misses it. I had a great time. She apologized for some people who loved to make fun. I was working for the Lord, so I did not mind.

I hope you are having a great week. Talk to soon!

I want to live like no one else so I can live like no one else!

I am finally sick of being in debt. Today, I am pledging to do something about it. I spent most of my day shopping with my mom and nephews. The whole time I was asking myself, why are they buying so much junk. My nephews said that they just wanted to be like me. I told them immediately, I don't buy to buy. They asked me then why did I buy? Today, people I am pledging to live like no one else so that later on I can live like no one else.

Don't get me wrong I am in a very good position financially. I have been saving for retirement since I was 24. I do have some old debts that won't go away. I will now channel my vision on my debts. I don't want to be slaved to the lender. I want to be free.

A few reminders are in order for those still listening. Remember, I am 38. I have been out of college for a while now. I am single. No children or grandchildren to take care of. Full disclosure, I have taken care of many in my family over the years. I have cut back in that area big time since moving back to Georgia. I do love to give to those who ask. I have been so blessed and that is my way of giving back. I give back in other ways as well. Volunteering my time a lot to service is the biggest way I love to give.

Now, stop reading and go make a written budget plan for the rest of the month. Mine is easy since I have paid all of my bills.

I just want to be good!

I just returned from a 2 mile walk. I find myself thinking a lot lately about life. "I just want to be good!" In the beginning God said on many occasion that it is good. I want him to say about my lift that it was good. What does that mean? What does that look like? I'm 38, and feel pretty good about what is happening in my life. I am always second-guessing myself whether I am doing what God wants me to do! I just want to be good!

I don't have an incredible family to brag about. Most know my story, that I really have to rely on my Christian friends for spiritual family. This can be very hard as most people have their own physical family. I have been blessed over the years, families have been good to include me in their activities. It amazes me how I want that for myself( a physical spiritual family of my own) I not rushing things, and I don't want it to happen tomorrow. It would be great at times.

I have my work. I love my work. I love watching students grow and become who they are. I am in a weird situation. I am single, and I am working in schools and clergy. Both of these professions are not real friendly to singles. I know this, and I want to stay there anyway. Again, all I want to do is be good! Every place that I have worked, I believe was a good experience in my growth professionally. You see, I love getting it right. It might be bad the first year, but it will be better the next. I don't like the status quo. Don't tell me that this is just the way it is. I will want to work to change that. This is where frustration comes on me as I want to fix it. It involves people, so it is very complicated!

I just want to be good!